New Life In the UK!!: 2月 2009

2009年2月23日星期一

20090222-倫敦夕陽下

Evenings of yesterday and today.

Yesterday

Today

2009年2月22日星期日

在我的2nd supervisor要求我把研究概述放上我們機構的學術網站，我好像被催眠了似的真的相信自己可以做些什麼足以改變世界的事情...

跟我熟識的人都知道，我對於唸書一向沒什麼自信，但也就莫名奇妙走到這一步，直到我的supersivors露出笑容，我大概才會有一點點..."吼..好險"的僥倖過關的感覺，雖然，大家總告訴我要相信自己，但，我想我還是被小時候不好的學習經驗所籠罩著吧...

anyway，網站的LINK在這，有興趣的人可以上去看看，照片是我自拍的喔=>這件事我就比較有信心，哈!

這是一首我從小就很喜歡的歌What a Feeling，Irene Cara唱的，電影Flashdance閃舞的主題曲，在人生中一場重要的電子琴演奏會上彈過，至今還是很愛，小時候從沒聽過有vocal的版本，拜科技發達之賜，Youtube讓我又再度找到她...

First, when there's nothing but a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide deep inside your mind
All alone I have cried silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel, made of stone

Well I hear the music, close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around, take a hold of my heart

[Chorus:]
What a feeling, bein's believin'
I can't have it all, now I'm dancin' for my life
Take your passion, and make it happen
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life

[Solo]

Now I hear the music, close my eyes, I am rhythm
In a flash it takes hold of my heart

[chorus (with ... "now I'm dancing through my life")]

What a feeling

What a feeling (I am music now), bein's believin' (I am rhythm now)
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life
What a feeling (I can really have it all)
What a feeling (Pictures come alive when I call)
I can have it all (I can really have it all)
Have it all (Pictures come alive when I call)
(call, call, call, call, what a feeling) I can have it all
(Bein's believin') bein's believin'
(Take your passion, make it happen) make it happen
(What a feeling) what a feeling... [to fade]

2009年2月15日星期日

20090215-倫敦慢慢走

一年過去了，唸書的過程，讓我體會到凡事急不來...

雖然，現在看來順理成章的事情怎麼當時沒有想到?但，似乎也就要是唸了這麼多書，才能找到知識之間的關連，才能拼湊出點什麼，雖然兩位supervisor目前都還蠻開心與興奮的看到我的idea，但說實在，我每天可都是提心吊膽的擔心自己不夠好，或是沒有找到其實人家已經發表過的相關的論文，朋友C說只有聰明的人才會不斷反覆的質疑自己...

不知道這條路繼續走下去會怎麼樣?暫時沒有多餘的精力想到17個小時外的台灣，似乎，決定來倫敦唸書的那一刻，就已經放棄了想家的權利，整件事情，犧牲最大的是我家的狗狗，好心疼他見不到我，又搞不清楚為什麼偶爾還是可以聽到我跟媽媽講話的聲音...

生命要繼續往前走，決定要去新加坡唸書的18歲ㄇㄟ(朋友的女朋友)，也是拼了命的努力著，每一個早晨，都得要告訴自己，要用功，要成器，國中時的班導師斷言我就只念個高職就好了的，沒想到，今天，我在念PhD，要是回頭跟她說，不知道她會怎樣的自責不應該輕易斷言學生的未來?!我只是不適合強被死記的方法好嗎?!有關聯考的那一切，只是在測驗一個人的記憶力有多好...

慢慢走，慢慢走，我總會走到終點的，不管是學業還是生活，hope everyone will be okay。

Jewel-Good Day

I say to myself
Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.
Standing with the fridge wide open, staring
Such a sight, florescent light
The stars are bright
Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit
As it is, I might watch TV
Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me
I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, just let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be all right, cause I'm all right with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be

I shiver, shut the door
Can't think standing here no more
I'm alone, my mind's racing, heart breaking
Can you be everything I need you to be?
Can you protect me like a daughter?
Can you love me like a father?
Can you drink me like water?
Say I'm like the desert, just way hotter.

The point of it all
Is that if I should fall
Still you're name I'll call

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
God, but still we laugh

Get back in bed, turn off the TV
You say "It'll be all right baby, just wait and see."

It's gonna be all right, it's gonna be okay
It's gonna be all right, just wait and see
It's gonna all right, no matter what they say
Gonna be a good day, just wait, just see
Gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gonna be, Ok

Uh-oh, I'm awake again
It's one a.m.
Staring...
Such a sight
Well, at least the stars are bright