20090215-倫敦慢慢走

一年過去了，唸書的過程，讓我體會到凡事急不來...

雖然，現在看來順理成章的事情怎麼當時沒有想到?但，似乎也就要是唸了這麼多書，才能找到知識之間的關連，才能拼湊出點什麼，雖然兩位supervisor目前都還蠻開心與興奮的看到我的idea，但說實在，我每天可都是提心吊膽的擔心自己不夠好，或是沒有找到其實人家已經發表過的相關的論文，朋友C說只有聰明的人才會不斷反覆的質疑自己...

不知道這條路繼續走下去會怎麼樣?暫時沒有多餘的精力想到17個小時外的台灣，似乎，決定來倫敦唸書的那一刻，就已經放棄了想家的權利，整件事情，犧牲最大的是我家的狗狗，好心疼他見不到我，又搞不清楚為什麼偶爾還是可以聽到我跟媽媽講話的聲音...

生命要繼續往前走，決定要去新加坡唸書的18歲ㄇㄟ(朋友的女朋友)，也是拼了命的努力著，每一個早晨，都得要告訴自己，要用功，要成器，國中時的班導師斷言我就只念個高職就好了的，沒想到，今天，我在念PhD，要是回頭跟她說，不知道她會怎樣的自責不應該輕易斷言學生的未來?!我只是不適合強被死記的方法好嗎?!有關聯考的那一切，只是在測驗一個人的記憶力有多好...

慢慢走，慢慢走，我總會走到終點的，不管是學業還是生活，hope everyone will be okay。

Jewel-Good Day



I say to myself
Self, why are you awake again? It's one a.m.
Standing with the fridge wide open, staring
Such a sight, florescent light
The stars are bright
Might make a wish, if I believed in that shit
As it is, I might watch TV
Cause it's nice to see people more messed up than me
I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, just let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be all right, cause I'm all right with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gotta be

I shiver, shut the door
Can't think standing here no more
I'm alone, my mind's racing, heart breaking
Can you be everything I need you to be?
Can you protect me like a daughter?
Can you love me like a father?
Can you drink me like water?
Say I'm like the desert, just way hotter.

The point of it all
Is that if I should fall
Still you're name I'll call

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
God, but still we laugh

Get back in bed, turn off the TV
You say "It'll be all right baby, just wait and see."

It's gonna be all right, it's gonna be okay
It's gonna be all right, just wait and see
It's gonna all right, no matter what they say
Gonna be a good day, just wait, just see
Gonna be okay, cause I'm okay with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be, it's gonna be, Ok

Uh-oh, I'm awake again
It's one a.m.
Staring...
Such a sight
Well, at least the stars are bright